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I went thru something that fucked me up and Everytime something goes wrong I always remember my past and that fucking sucks because I hate it I don’t like like remembering something that I did that was so stupid and I hate myself for that because it’s something I can never get back and I’m sorry if u expect me to not worry or doubt stuff but because of my past I can’t keep thinking something good will happen to me at all and I always think “What if” in a situation I can’t never just be happy I always think something bad will happen because I’m used to it and I’m a mess I cry for little things because sometimes those little things are big things and I always have to ask myself what if and I don’t like that I can’t be happy of who I am I don’t like myself I see in the mirror every morning is just something horrible and worthless person and hoping that I was someone good enough but I’m not I’m stuck at being me my worthless self :/
